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Hilfe! Mein Herz, Es BrenntEverything I do, seems to disappoint you
Everything I say, just gets in my way
Every time it beats, it breaks away
Because it’s beating, still beating.
Beating for you
My heart it’s gone away
To a place where it can be
Kept so close
In every dose
Of love and your embrace
So write me a song
Sing me a sonnet
Let me lie, let me cry about it
Because my mind is lost
Yet my head is found
Why can’t, why can’t I
Hear the sound
Of your voice
Life without love takes more than it seems
To believe and to see so many different things
Life on the line, jagged and torn
My life the wreck, the awfully worn
Broken out, broken down
The mind overwhelms
The life I need to live
The life that ends
And I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you
Love you, love you, love you,
Love is you
Love was always you
Repeat it, replay it, say it again; say it again
It’s in my head, I need to let it out
Before it consumes, it consumes me
I Hope It Kills YouThe ship is sinking
The master falling to the depths
Life ever after is nothing
When you’re lost
Sailing through a sea of dreams
Watching ships burn as deeper
Into the uncharted lands
Seas aren’t of dreams,
But of the tears you’ve spilt
To get you where you are now
You need to lose to truly win
And first fail to succeed
We learn from our mistakes
So we don’t make them again
But you were never a mistake
Just out of time (out of time)
Taken away before it could grow
You see this as a mistake
Am I a mistake? (Mistake)
To you! (To you, only you)
The love you burnt from me
Am I enough to lose?
What next? How will this end?
With a knife in my back and a life that happened?
To live with it when it truly kills me
Is it killing you too? (Say it kills)
Forgiveness//RegretForgiveness//Regret - Return All Memories
I can’t believe all these mistakes I’ve made;
What could I have done to try and save,
Us from falling into the depths of despair?
To show you how much I truly do care,
Look you in the eyes and say those three words.
I love you so much, but I tried to reverse.
Please take this life, this life away from me;
I don’t deserve you that I finally see!
I’d trade my life for yours any day, any week.
My outlook on life is so awfully bleak,
I hate that I breathe and you gasp for your breath;
You say these are words; dear I’m waiting for death!
Now I’ve lost it all, I won’t get it back;
Now that my whole world has turned to black!
The darkness it’s taken me to where I’ll reside;
Sempiternal solitude to set my feelings aside,
Rid me of all the pain that I caused you, you changed;
Its my fault, how could I do it, I am to be blamed!
Please take this life, this lif
You Stupid Fucking WhoreSo hold me close don't ever let me go,
There are things I've been through you'll never know;
The hardship, the torment that was placed upon me,
There are things that have been done I don't want you to see.
I died one million times to get to where I am now,
I don't know what to do, but it'll work out somehow;
The life I once loved and cherished has fallen down,
I hope you are happy wearing your blackened crown.
Sitting on your black throne, sucking the love and life from us all!
But I'm telling you now, I'll fight for humanity I won't let us fall;
I will defeat you! I see the truth, the clarity in this world,
And you can't stop me you fucking ignorant girl.
So go ahead with your whorish games,
Just know I was the one that you betrayed;
So take back every little lie you've spilt,
And clear up your mess, and all of your filth.
The only part of humanity left in you,
Is the monster that manipulates you;
Now rip it out from your soul, toss it aside,
Let bygones be bygones, let this hate die!
I ripped out my heart and I presented it to you,
The pain that was caused, if only you knew;
Every second it beats, it grows that much stronger,
But when you left, it could beat no longer;
For all that was and will never again be,
It was beating for you, never for me.
So all I can do is live on so heartless,
Look at me now, look at this mess;
The mess that has become of me,
No reason to live no reason to be;
That heart that I gave you is no longer needed,
'Cause the life that I live is oh so conceded;
But all I can do is live on to be so numb,
But I hope that one day a time will come;
Where my heart it begins to beat again,
But for now I wait up until then;
In the hopes of finding a reason to be,
Perhaps that day's soon, we shall just wait and see.
I Never LeftYou said I walked away, but in truth I got closer to stay;
I'd never leave ill remain close by, upon me you can always rely;
I couldn't forget you, no matter how hard I try;
Because my life is entrapped within your actions,
To sit in the rain with the light's refractions;
A rainbow so beautiful and bright,
Much like you a unique and wonderful sight;
Burnt through into my retinas,
And I will never believe or let in the;
Demons bent on seeking revenge,
And with these fractures I must repair I must mend;
Ill deposit all my willpower firmly within your grasp,
Just don't leave me that is the most I can ask.
That's it I've fallen, my wings are clipped.
We lost all control, abandon all ships.
A captain always goes down with his ship,
And regrets all that caused it to capsize and to tip.
For he should have seen the dangers to come,
But in the end the lord death has won.
Emergency messages never make it as far,
To save them all from the utmost bazaar.
They die with honour, swords in their hands.
They listen and wait, for the devil's commands.
To play them out, with their final march and encore;
As their lives pass, they are nevermore.
You see me as someone strong,
A lion perhaps, you couldn't be more wrong;
But in the end you won't see the real me,
'Cos when you see it, you won't believe;
That a lion so brave and so bold,
Could ever be so depressed and alone.
It's impossible to see, the real truth in my eyes,
Through years of practice I master the disguise;
To stop you seeing my weaknesses within,
Cos you won't understand about what could have been.
It hurts to think or dare breathe the name,
but it happens every second, I live all the same;
I wasn't good enough, there is nothing I can do,
Can't you see I can never hate you;
the burning of the blinding rain,
That woefully relieves my pain.
The stake that pierces my blackened heart,
Will slowly and eventually tear me apart;
Where death is welcomed and life is a lie,
To be at peace and eventually die.
The End of Heartache
Taking a Leap of faith into the abyss of emotions, drowning in the love and crushing under the pressure of heartache; The kind of heartache that cannot be repaired with inane distractions, but by receiving the love you so desperately desire, grasping, embracing, holding tighter than anything you have ever held before, keeping it locked inside the heart you once had.
I'm Not a CutterJust because I'm not a Cutter,
Doesn't mean I can't feel pain.
It just means I’m strong enough,
to fight the battle, without giving up,
or succumbing to my own agony.
It just means, that I'm strong enough to go on.
We're Waiting.To be a good writer is to be you. To be a good artist is to be you. To be anything is to be you. Dream. Live. Wonder. Create. And be yourself.
Because you are the one who can make the change that everyone's been waiting for. You can do what others were too afraid to do. You just need a little push, and a lot of hope.
But most of all, you need you. Your individuality. Your uniqueness. Your creativity. Your imagination. And if you tie that all together, you can create something absolutely beautiful. Something new. Something amazing. Something we've all been waiting for.
The world is waiting for the next J.K Rowling. The world is waiting for the next Van Gogh. The world is waiting for the next Beethoven. The next Einstein. The next John F. Kennedy. The world is waiting for you. We're waiting for a change. And who's the say you can't make a change? Who's to say you can't make a difference?
You can. You most certainly can. All you need is a dream, hope, and a little bit of imagination. And
I Dream About HerI dream about her, quite often, actually. It's been nearly two and a half years since I've seen her face to face, and it truly does break my heart when I remember the good times. She was one of my best friends, one of the greatest influences in my life, and someone who could make me smile. However, all good things must come to an end eventually.
Drugs don't just affect you, they affect your friends. When you've been roped into the bad crowd and refuse to turn to the people who love you most, you're going to lose everything you care about. Well, I cared for her, alright. We were nearly as inseparable as Sempai and I, hanging out nearly 24/7. Sure, there were fights, but every friend has a fight. It's when the line is drawn that things get messy.
In my dreams, I remember how she used to be, how fun she was, how silly she acted, and how she was just pleasant to have around. What happened? Why did she decide to go the way she went? To turn to lying, drug abusing, and overall not caring for
Just Venting"Are you alright?"
"Wow, you're good. Why aren't you in honors?"
Because I know I'll fail.
"Hello? ...You okay?"
"Wow, I didn't mean it. It was a fucking joke...Hello? Hey, I said I'm sorry."
"You don't appreciate anything."
"You're so lazy."
"Wow, what's got you in such a pissy mood?"
"Nothing. I'm fine."
"When was the last time you saw him?"
"...Over a month."
"When was the last time you talked to him?"
"And that boy you talked about, you're still with him?"
"He cheated on me."
"You don't trust many people, do you?"
"I trust far more than I should."
"For someone with all these problems, you sure do smile a lot."
CycleI reserve the option to be emotionally born, play, grow old, and die at last once every decade--perhaps every year, month, week, or day.
--J. Shidler 2014-04-06
Have you ever had the feeling...Have you ever had the feeling like you just don't know what to do? Where you just can't even think of what to say or who to talk to? Like you're being torn between two sides and you just don't know who to pick? Like if you make one wrong move, you'll be sent down a slippery slope with no return?
I feel like this every day. I don't know what to say, and I don't know what not to say. I don't know who I should and shouldn't be talking to. I don't know what questions are safe to ask, and what ones are better left unsaid.
I can't simply hide away from it all. And I can't simply do something too drastic. I feel like I'm being forced to feel some way when I feel another. Like I'm the bad guy for staying true to myself.
I'll get in big trouble if I make a mistake, and I don't know how to keep going without making one. I'm terrified of the inevitable fates that I see...I can't find a path to a good outcome no matter how much I think it over...
No one tells me straight up what's wrong, I have to
You don’t know me and I don’t fully know you- I only know your story. Sometimes a story is all you need to really know someone, and I’m sorry you may never know me, but I feel blessed to know you.
I... well, vocabulary is very limited and I don’t really think there are words to describe it but, well, I can try. In a way I kind of look up to you. It’s amazing how strong you are; if what is happening to you were to happen to me I wouldn’t be half as strong as you are. That’s how I also feel about Jeth. We often don’t know what we have, and I sometimes think that it’s amazing how people can live without things I take for granted. Like Jeth told me you aren’t able to look at a computer screen; that would seriously kill me. All I ever do is go on my phone and laptop, and if I didn’t have those things, I would I hate every second without them. You and Jeth both are similar in your own ways because you both have more po
You and I are just the same...
Through glazed plastic eyes I stare, a soft smile sewn onto my lips.
"You're my best friend!" the girl across from me smiles, giggling gleefully as she does.
"You're mine too..." I respond with warmth in my unspoken words.
She brings me close, hugging me to her chest, as she spins in a circle. Then after she holds my hand and brings me wherever she goes.It always starts like that, so gentle and innocent. Slowly, it grows as she starts to reveal her secrets to you. Crushes she has, wishes for things that she wants. You'd think this was an unbreakable bond. But then, they begin to grow distant. Their warmth leaves and you're left in a cold corner, forgotten.
They may come to visit you every now and then, but it's never for very long and soon enough it's they simply don't return. In years they may find you and look you over. They find you dusty, your eyes are scratched and the paint is faded.
"I remember y
I Met This Guy and He Was DifferentI'm an outcast. I don't even own any skirts that I can still fit and I only own 2 dresses both of which haven't been worn in 2 years. However, at the same time I don't play sports. I'm more of a nerd if you want to give me a label. Anyway, for the longest time I was extremely honest, ambitious, and seemed to be made of stone. I didn't get sad, or angry, or heartbroken or anxious over things. That angry part changed very quickly, but I'm not even talking about that. When I was younger, if I had a crush on a guy I seriously just told him and everyone else. Considering I've never had a boyfriend, you'er best to assume they've always rejected me. Then came this one year, which I'm not telling you what year, just to sound less pathetic. I met this guy and of course at first it was just physical attraction, we didn't talk. Then one day despite the fact we didn't talk, he knew I liked to write. We had this huge project , we had to write a Choose Your Own Adventure book. He and his best
Out Of The Blue
I speak to you in love; I speak to you in truth,
You're the one thing I cant bare to lose;
You came into my life so spontaneously,
And I can't understand, why I love you deeply;
It's been so long since I've felt this way,
I guess it would happen again, what can I say.
You are amazing, a lot more than you see,
So so perfect, an excellence in humanity;
But you are so far away from me,
But in time we may finally be;
Together, forever, doing what we love,
What more can I ask for, it's what we love.
In the darkness you shine right through,
Breaking the borders that restrain you;
I see you're destined for greatness,
And to you I have to confess;
That you may have been here for not so long,
But I can see I don't want you gone;
Not now not ever, I need you with me,
We'll lie in the rain and sit by the sea;
Smiling so much, our happiness is bliss,
And hold our breath and embrace the kiss.
So remain amazing, you deserve the best,
I don't care what they say, fuck the rest.
Because when you smile
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